Been thinking

Our friendship is based on fun, I like it that way but sometimes it doesn't really feel like a friendship at all. I feel like, just like me you are kind of scared to let me in.

We always end up having fun no matter what we are doing or where we are. It was really good to see you the past weekend and I'm glad that you are becoming a part of my life again, I have missed you.

Wow our friendship had almost disintegrated, I rarely see you and when I do it's not like it was before, this time I know its not my fault.

I think you are the nicest dude, I never feel like your judging me and its good to catch up when we do.

There is so much mystery behind you, i want to know who you really are.

I rarely see you anymore and I don't like it. Even though you are mean to me I still enjoy your company.

You will end up losing everyone if you keep going the way you are, try and appreciate the small things people do for you rather then what you do for them.

I hadn't seen you in such a long time and it really was so good to see you again. Things still felt the same for me...

You think your so cute and indie, fuck off.

I miss you a lot, we had a real friendship its a shame it all had to end.

Your actually a nice girl and I feel sorry for you, the way everyone teases you.

You always act so nice but for some reason it all seems really fake to me, I could be wrong.

What's it like to feel safe?

Just never good enough...

...

It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them.
It's sad how times change.

It seems that

just like everyone else I have this fear of becoming close with people. Feel like I have really stuffed things up Im sorry.

I am scared

scared that I will end up with nothing and noone.

I hate

that I grow bored of everything so quickly, espcially people. All I ever want is change. This whole thing with you has kind of ticked me off a little bit but I wont ever mention it to you. I feel like I put in so much effort and you just kind of shrug it off and that everything is almost like a competition with you. I'm sick of always being second best, I've never felt anything but. wah wah wah

I really miss

you and the bond that we had, that I ruined. I miss spending all my time with you and everything we used to do. We did different things, explored nice places, we did nice things. Now all my life consists of more then ever is drunken nights and people who i know will end up leaving me in the long run. I'm sorry and I hope things are better for you now, there is noone to blame except for myself.

I have not posted in a while..

My life honestly could not get any better. I have good people and we have good times.This is what's been happening in the past few months