A whole lot of nothing

This blog isn't about anything in particular, just a few things that are on my mind.

Recently i have seemed to turn into a hermit and i like things this way, nothing can go wrong, no mistakes can be made,no one to annoy me, therefore i have no regrets later on. All i like to do these days is lay in my bed and watch movies with pointless story lines and think about places i would like to go or people i would like to meet.

I'm sick to death of being lonely it would be rather nice to have someone care about me as much as i care about them. It bugs me to see someone in a relationship with a lovely person who just ends up getting hurt because their partner cannot be faithful. i don't see what's so hard about remaining loyal to someone who supposedly holds your heart.

I'm tired of everyone and this bullshit about judging everyone on the decisions that they make. Who are you to say what's right and wrong and where does the idea of what's right and wrong even come from?

Others can't seem to let go of things that had nothing to do with them in the first place.

So many people put on this act that makes it seem like they actually give a shit about you and what you have to say . I, myself can not fake this. If i don't give a shit about you then that is that and i cant change it. Personally i cannot stand others who are far to friendly and i will not act this way, ever. The smallest of things will drive me crazy, even the way people say something or how they change around another.

As time goes on i think more and more about how i would like to move away and start again. To a place where no one knows my name or anything about me in fact. Start again somewhere nice just me, living a nice little rundown house on the corner of a quiet street. A place without big shopping centers just a small corner shop where you go to get the bread and milk every couple of days. It would be so nice.

These days i seem to be so lost. I've lost any sight of the person i used to be and many of the things i used to believe in. I don't know who i am. I have many things i wish would come but i just can't see them coming any time soon or ever in fact. I wish i had enough willpower to work towards where i want to be in a few years time but my attitude towards everything doesn't make it any easier.

I'm just babbling on about nothing now.